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Thursday, April 13, 2017

Finding ME...embracing the discovery.

In all the striving I find peace.  I find rest in the midst of the motion of life that surrounds me.  This is a shocker to me.  I had no idea I would be in this place.

I’m sure you’ve been there…so busy your head is spinning and you can’t figure out which task to pickup next or why you can’t get 37 things done at the same time.  You know I have this entire house to go through …inch by inch…drawer by drawer…closet by closet.  Getting rid of things left, right and center preparing for this major journey ahead, along with raising boys, creating, tending to my husband and still finding time to be a friend.

I’m receiving the greatest lesson of all time…learning to rest…while still remaining active and productive.

This season of transition is the most important one I’ve ever faced.  I know God brought me to the middle of a corn field to get my attention.  My focus was scattered.  You see, I’m a go go go girl.  I love to be on the move…active…productive…social…creative.  I love to count the number of things I’ve accomplished in a day, wipe the sweat off my brow and pat myself on the back.  My sense of worth has long been tied up in my accomplishments.  No more.

Our worth has nothing to do with what we do or how fast we do it.  We are valued in God’s eyes no matter the circumstances we find ourselves in or create for ourselves.  Each of us not better than another because His love in without condition.

Have you learned to just be?  Or do you pride yourself in your busyness?  I used to do just that.  I LOVED admitting to people just how busy I was.  How many projects I was in the middle of…how many things I had to do that day…how many tasks were vying for my attention.  I was a hot mess with no grip on peace or stillness.  In fact, I saw rest as a sign of laziness (in myself, I never placed that undue pressure on anyone else).

It is essential that we learn to take time…breathe…listen and focus.  Each day we get a choice…what will we set our sights on?  What will we choose to focus on?  How will we grow in the middle of the difficulties, obstacles, disappointments, as well as the victories, joys and successes that come our way?  Life is meant to be filled with meaning and passion and direction which can only be found in following God’s perfect plan.

More than anything I just want to be in the perfect will of God for my life…disregarding the pressures placed on me by people…even those I love and respect.  I am me.  It’s high time I learn who that is and own up to it….then start enjoying that awareness.

I’m reading a book (5 actually—see there’s pride stepping in) called Emotionally Healthy Spirituality and in chapter 4 he talks about knowing yourself in order to know God.  Whew…that’s a BIG one.  So many of us…well, all of us…have a false self (most likely layers of).  The one we put on for others as well as ourselves to be more likable and accepted and even loved.  Most times we don’t even realize we’re living under that junk.

Self-awareness and acceptance is a lifelong process…shedding your false self to actually be the real YOU God created…so unique and beautiful in your own special way.  Maybe you’ve already started the process.  Maybe you have no clue what I’m even talking about….then you’re probably buried under the smoke screen facade of false self.  There’s no shame … no judgement.  Simply love.   Tune in and apply yourself to really knowing YOU.  Peel back the pressures from others and even yourself.  You’re worth every bit of it.

I’ll leave you with this question….I would love if you’d comment below and share your growth with this safe community of neighbors.  What one thing have you realized about yourself that you love and appreciate?  Are you a giver?  Are you kind?  Are you a good listener?  Do you think deep thoughts?   Do you love to skip in the local grocery store parking lot with your kiddos?  Are you a good storyteller?  Are you passionate?  Do you have a funny laugh?  

I don’t know…it could be anything….what makes you unique?  I’d love to know!  Until we meet again….follow the journey on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and whatever you do...subscribe to the YouTube channel.

Much love and peace pouring out on your today,


Friday, April 7, 2017

The Purging Process of the Journey

Have you ever experienced one of those team building exercises where you have to fall straight back and trust that someone will be there to catch you?  This is about how life feels right now.

I feel like ... I'm falling.  Trusting.  Expecting.  

This journey "The Long Way Home" is completely changing me already and it hasn't even begun (looking at leaving Iowa the end of July as it stands).  The part of the process I'm currently undergoing is the purge and store portion of the journey.  We've decided against getting a storage unit here in Iowa and have instead decided to get rid of all our possessions.  Well, technically not ALL.  I'm choosing to keep things like baby books, pictures, some family heirlooms, jewelry and other bits that are irreplaceable and storing them with my sister and a couple of generous friends.    But the rest is fair game; including ALL the furniture, linens, books, art, kitchen supplies and everything else a person collects along the way.
Packing: here's a test run of what I'll be packing...inside are paint brushes, medicine, important papers,
jewelry, art supplies, toiletries, pens and all matter of colored pencils and markers.  Plus about 7 sharpies!

This process is a painful one but one that I already feel the benefits of.  You see, I'm a collector through and through; things such as tea cups, sand, shells, plates, art....LOTS of art, pens, pillows, bedding, perfume, horses, books...GOOD books and even loads of vintage fabric.  Not to mention the fact that I have a quirky love for tables and chairs....  I like pretty things...some useful some not so much.  Letting them go....watching them walk out the door with someone else is a new feeling.

Releasing myself from the constraints of owning loads of 'stuff' is the real reward here.  We're walking away from material possessions to start fresh.  I'm already feeling lighter in a sense.
Terrible picture but here's the pile of stuff going back to Texas for storing.

Purging ... necessary ... and oh so difficult.

I'm having the hardest time figuring out how to live with less (much less) clothes and shoes.   I mean, really!  HOW?!?!?!  Then there's the cool factor.  Honestly, I don't know if my stuff is cool enough to wear over and over again.  How does a girl have style with only a handful of clothes?  Maybe I just need to go shopping for my travel wardrobe?

As I'm sailing through this purging process I find the TRUST side of things comes into play regarding ....well, everything, really.
The details haven't been ironed out yet: What we'll drive off in (looking like the Land Rover unless a miracle RV finds its way into our hands), where we'll stay (Air BnB's across America), how long we'll stay in each town (a week to a month or more), and who we need to meet along the way (divine appointments).  Our whole world hangs in the balance.

Trusting God all the way.  I hope you'll stick around...maybe invite some friends to join the journey to finding our next home.  After a year of traveling, I'm sure we'll find the best house (near the sand of course) for our family.  (here's the story to catch you up) and below is a little video letting you into my mess.

How are you stepping out of your comfortable box of routine and habits in your life?  Or are you?  Are you thinking about it?  Stretch your boundaries and limits as you reach for your dreams.  Leave me a comment below letting us know how you're doing life.

Much LOVE,

Here's our video story of where we're going....thanks for joining us:) xox

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